Not sure how to get there.

I've done a lot of things. Or I've tried. Working out, trying to eat better. The time factor is what makes me give up and I end up binging. I don't want to do it anymore. I am going on vacation soon. I am choosing to not eat. Or not as much at least. I always see amazing photos of thin girls. And I am gaining weight. And it feels horrible. I want to weigh 110 pounds. I'm 5'4" and around 130. I used to weigh 118 a couple years ago. My clothes aren't fitting right. I want to know what it's like to wear a bikini and like what I see in the mirror. I have had this battle for quite some time with my body image. I am just here to make some friends or have some support. Maybe get some advice. Also if i barely eat anything a day, and work out, can I expect to drop 15 pounds in the next month? Ah. Well I'll keep updates.